The 52 Lists Project: Week 9: I Want…

This week’s list is fitting to the Christmas trend of WANTING things. Wish lists are synonymous with the season where we jot down a seemingly never-ending list of all those material things that we want to get.

I took this list and ran a little further with it, looking a bit deeper at the question, ‘what do you want to add to your life’. Of course, there are some material things in there too, I mean, who can say no to a tonkabean candle?

Enjoy and please, please, please let me know what you think in the comments!


1. Balance

This was the first thing that came to mind when I put pen to paper as it’s something that I’ve been lacking recently. It’s been all work, some study and little rest for Jess lately and it’s definitely starting to take its toll!

I’m not waiting for Father Christmas though; I’ve been thinking up ways that I can reintroduce some balance. One way is by setting myself cut-offs. No more working for hours on non-working days, no more working past 9.30pm and DEFINITELY take more breaks.

I’m also using some tips for my to-do lists article and writing more of those ‘have done’ lists and reflective writing to make sure that I’m appreciating how much I’m getting done.

2. Time

3. More Money

They say that money can’t buy happiness, which is correct. But it can buy you feelings of security, safety and luxury which DO contribute to better mental well being and quality of life.

4. To be Able to Speak Japanese

I stumbled through my two years of life in Japan with little Japanese knowledge, starting with zero. A few months before leaving Japan I started to practice kanji, in the hopes that I would be able to continue building on my language skill and keep in touch with Japanese friends.

It’s almost 4 months on and I’m still practising Japanese! It’s been hard to keep it up with everything that’s been going on and I’ve not always been able to keep to my 30 minutes a day goal, but I’m still really proud of myself!

My ultimate goal is not only to be able to recognise the occasional kanji, but to be able to communicate freely with friends over in Japan!

5. A Filafax

I yearn to be this organised.

6. Trips to TK Maxx

Those mid-lockdown blues have me dreaming of TK Maxx.

7. A Warm Pair of Gloves

Winter is coming.

8. The Ability to Sign

Another language-based goal of mine is to learn to sign language. I think this is such a valuable language to learn, it’s helpful and just the way that it works sparks an interest in the linguist in me.

9. A Holiday Somewhere Beautiful

I miss exploring, relaxing and discovering new places and parts of myself. I’d love to go on a city break to somewhere new. While I was in Japan I was thinking how nice it would be to visit Rome, Paris or basically any other European city! I’ve also had my eye set on rural Italy for years now and would love to visit there too. Oh and then I want to head up to Scotland and spend some time hiking, staying in a cottage and relaxing.

So basically, anywhere new where I can take a break!

10. A Better Routine

11. (Once a Week Minimum) Weight Training

I find weight training so important! It gets your sweat pumping, makes you FEEL the workout and makes me feel strong.

12. Better Use of Social Media

The overwork and the temptations of modern day life have led me to up my mindless scrolling time and drop my ‘actual replying to friends and engaging with posts’ time.

13. Tonkabean Candles

Image from Unsplash

14. A Waterproof Jacket

I’ve been stealing Beck’s waterproof for long enough; I think it’s time to get my own, especially since I spend every morning walking with Charlie, in the rainy northwest of the UK, in Autumn!

15. Time to Catch up with Friends

I miss my friends. Lockdown, long-distance, work life and postgraduate study means that I haven’t been able to see them as much as I want to.

16. An Influential Blog

I write pretty consistently nowadays and the stuff that I write is usually personal. It would mean a lot to me to know that my blog is making an impact on someone’s life. I’d like my blog to brighten someone’s day, get them motivated to do something they would’ve otherwise missed or offer them a new perspective on something.

My blog goal isn’t to rake in millions of AI-generated followers and become an ‘Influencer’ with an ‘I’ (although the money that those people are on IS tempting). I guess I want the blog, and myself in general, to have a different sort of value. A value that sticks.

Image from Unsplash

17. Guitar Skills

18. Onsen

I miss onsen most in cold weather. It takes me back to those thoughtful little epiphanies I’d have, sat comfortably naked in hot, soft water, looking up at the night sky.

19. Air-Conditioning in my Car

Tofu-san had A/C, Mushu does not. This means that if I want to drive anywhere at night, I’m doing so with the windows down to stop the windscreen misting up.

20. Pre-COVID Opportunities

While I can definitely acknowledge that the lockdowns have had some positive effects, like having us outside more often, being inventive and creative in the way we lead our lives and manage our relationships, considering hygiene a lot more regularly and implementing measures that should have really been in place from the start (i.e. we’re sanitising public spaces more frequently now) there are still some things I miss.

Hugging, looking at a non-digital menu in a restaurant you didn’t have to book in advance, not having a beard of spots caused by wearing a face mask, going to gigs, dancing on a night out, seeing more than one friend every month…

Brooklyn Parlor, Fukuoka, Japan

21. Healthy Environment

We’ve all heard David Attenborough and Greta Thunberg, the world needs to heal.

22. A Society That is Healing

Speaking of healing, our society could use a bit of that too. As we continue to grow more and more aware of other people and their situations, and the true, epistemic damage that powerful people have caused, I hope that we can use that knowledge to make necessary change and, eventually, heal.

23. Flowers

Flowers make everything just that little bit better. I actually got some flowers this week from Ste. He said that he wanted to cheer me up because I’ve been a little stressed recently. I cried.

Thank you Ste!

24. Positivity

25. Organised Spotify Playlists

I’ve wanted this for some time now, and as time has gone on my ‘Liked Songs’ space has just become fuller and more chaotic. You have Pocahontas blasting out ‘JUST AROUND THE RIVERBEND’ followed by the Blackout Crew putting donks on things, chased away by Lamb of God who sits next to Janet Suhh who may or may not be followed by Machine Gun Kelly, Don Miguelo, the Bay City Rollers, Andrea Bocelli, N-Dubz or MCR.

I want mood settings! I want collections of music that are, at least in some way, congruent.

26. Rest

27. Cuddles

28. Clarity

One thing that stress is notorious for is skewing perception. Every task seems bigger because there are so many other tasks to do and the never-ending-nature of things make it difficult to see your own progress. Taking time out, writing reflectively and talking to other people brings an essential clarity to the situation.

29. Simplicity

30. Plants

I’ve been getting my virtual plant fix from botanygeek’s instagram!

Image from Unsplash

31. Hours of Sleep

32. Habbo

Sorry photos of girls looking out from their hotel balconies, but this is the ultimate ‘take me back’ moment. I have long since enjoyed the wonders of the game Habbo. I know that now, years on, even if I did revisit the game, it wouldn’t be the same as it was when I was in high-school, exploring the weird virtual world with Rachel every weekend.

33. Chances to Get Involved in Uni

As an undergraduate I didn’t have the time to get as involved in uni life as I wanted. I wanted to join sports teams and different clubs and socials. Instead I studied for hours in the library and then drove between Lancaster and St Helens to work and fund my studies. Not that I’m less busy this time around… but a girl can dream.

34. Spontaneous Moments

Moments of awe, that come from nowhere, that get your blood pumping are moments that I want more of. I want a little adventure to pop up out of nowhere. I want to create amazing memories.

35. South Korean Dramas

They are an elite form of entertainment and I would highly recommend. Some of my favourites are ‘Crash Landing on You’, ‘Itaewon Class’ and ‘It’s Okay Not to Be Okay’. I watched ‘It’s Okay Not to Be Okay’ quite recently and loved what they did with the themes of the Gothic and mental illness. The characters in that show are deep, realistically flawed, hilarious and their relationships are brilliant. If you have any recommendations let me know in the comments!

I’m a self-confessed Koreaboo

What’s on your Christmas list? Let me know in the comments!

Stay Positive,


Jess x

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One thought on “The 52 Lists Project: Week 9: I Want…

  1. Hiya Jess another lovely blog & it’s nice reading your lists
    All I want for Christmas is family time & as much as possible
    I miss hugging & kissing family as it’s my way to show affection
    So that’s all I’ll be asking for I hope you get everything & more on your list
    Love you lots always Xx😍xX


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